Turmoil
Well, the thing is, there's was this girl, she was younger than he, he being me, me being 23, well nearly, and after fleeting glances on the commute and getting to the train station just in time day after day to chat to her on the way, well we exchanged emails, and decided to meet up on a saturday and spend the whole day together, just walking around London town talking, joking, flirting and eating sweets. We had a brief encounter in a quiet place, and I started to think of her as an emotion and not just a pretty face.
Of course, this was but the honeymoon, for all too soon, the darkness falls, my endless emails, of utter waffle give way to too many missed calls. And I have nothing to say, so I say I'm bored, but really I just can't stand to be ignored. And so in a mood most black and dreary, feeling forlorn, weak and weary, I enquire, as is my desire, to discover if she be part of my destiny, I utter, "Do you like me?" Oh boy, you're turmoil's new toy! What a twat! What kind of question is that!
She said she did, what else could she say, but I doubt I'll hear from her today, or tomorrow, at least I'm at peace, content with my sorrow.
And then it's uncomfortable, bumping into her on the train, I could avoid it, but I'm running late again, and not on purpose now. I know, well I think, she doesn't dislike me, maybe she did like me a bit, but now I've managed to curtail that idea and she'd be forgiven for not wanting to hear from me again. I guess it's just the way things are, people are not how they seem from afar.
You know when you just think, if I could only speak to you honestly for a little bit, without distractions, I'd explain that I'm not paranoid or totally insecure, maybe I lack a bit of confidence and could get out more, but I'm really nice person, I've been upset before so I try not to upset anyone, I'm quite funny at times and I've got a really good imagination, it's just I've not adapted to social norms, I don't know what to do in certain situations, when should you text after a date, or should you call, should you invite the person out for a drink, if they say they are busy should that be taken as a hint, or a polite rejection?
Why is it such a big deal to say, hey, look, I like you, do you like me? It's quite nice and general, you can say anything to that, like, yeah I do let's go for a drink or something, or you can say, sure I do, but not in a romantic way, let's just be friends ay? Or you could say, well I thought I might, I enjoyed meeting you that first day, it was fine and I imagined we'd go out again sometime, but then you went all weird and I thought you were a bit of a freak!
Next time, the thing to do, don't start liking them, until they like you!
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